The letters of our thoughts are the ideas present in our mind before they come to realization . . . Thoughts that are, yet not felt . . . The words of the subconscious . . . of the soul . . .


Sunday, September 21, 2008

Mr. Toad of Toad Hill

I am Mr. Toad of Toad Hall, the mad fop that is seen by others.
There are certain things that I write, but never mean, and then there are certain things that I never write but always mean.
I'm tired of stupidity.
It's the month of Elul and enough is enough.
I'm tired of my stupidity,
Enough is enough!
But even more I'm tired of that of others.
I'm of being asked about the divorce . . . The Torah says
לֹא-יוּמְתוּ אָבוֹת עַל-בָּנִים, וּבָנִים לֹא-יוּמְתוּ עַל-אָבוֹת: אִישׁ בְּחֶטְאוֹ, יוּמָתוּ
Father shall not die for the sins of their sons, nor sons for the sins of their father!
Anyone who says otherwise is a kofer as far as I am concerned.

I'm cryin'
I'm cryin'

I'm tired of not being seen for me, but being seen as a mere manifestation of my past . . .
I want to be seen for my accomplishments, for my skills and desires, not as facade of you assumptions
-for when you assume you make an . . .

Enough is enough!

Piper by the gates of dawn:

"This is the place of my song-dream, the place the music played to me, Here, in this holy place, here
if anywhere, surely we shall find Him!"


Passerby said...

And where is your Emunah? Think about it. If you truly, b'emes, deeply believed, then you wouldn't be concerned or bothered by whatever is being asked, investigated, dug up or what you think is being looked down upon.
You are definitely not being "punished" for your father's actions, as you might want to think.

There is a big G-d out there, looking out for you.

Mottel said...

You criticize for Emunah, but the frustration of the situation does not plague you. The problem is not that I am being punished for anyone's sins, but that the actions of others are seen to somehow have left some horrid psychological scar on me that is deemed impossible to treat. At the moment I have the desire to make more then clear my opinion about those sick individuals (who are, sadly, far too many) but I'll keep myself reserved.

I am not taken seriously by others. There are far too many people that will believe any piece of rubbish that I could make up about the secular world, but don't take me seriously when it comes to Yidishkiet. We can say that G-d is big, and it is true, but the time has come for us to stop putting our heads in the ground and admit, that despite the Rebbe's words about the soul of every Jew, the purpose of Chassidus and the power of Teshuvah, most born Lubavitchers look at Ba'ale Tehsuvah as inferior -monkeys that dance for pleasure of men.

Passerby said...

Are you referring to Shidduchim? Are you saying that a born Lubav. thinks lower of you and doesn't want to even consider it because of your background? Am I understanding you, or way off?