Ba'al Teshuva syndrome explained

I've written in the past about my own feelings on being a Ba'al Teshuva.
Let us now perhaps dwell a little on a returnee to Judaism in general . . . or rather the syndrome 'Ba'al Tshuka' as it were.
I stated in the linked post that it was (is) my desire to separate myself from the image of a Ba'al Teshuva. On one hand this would seem to be the logical continuation of any Ba'al Teshuva's education -why should he remain outside the folds of the community, markedly different in his education or actions . . . one would want to bring him entirely into the fold.
Yet then (to paraphrase) 'Kalkalaso hu takanaso' to 'fix' (after writing the word I'm not sure if it's the write one) him is to destroy the unique quality of his being a Ba'al Teshuva.
Most people do not become frum out of a fear, a fear that they've squandered their past, of how poorly they've acted etc. (Though I am quite sure that at some point all Ba'alie Teshuva have felt the above, myself included; the main draw to Yiddishkiet is from desire -the sense of completion found there within) This is the Yesod of Chabad -sur meirah through Aseih Tov -the draw to Judaism is from the truth, the simcha etc. Automatically the bad slips away.

Time is running low on the Computer here in the Internet Cafe . . . to be continued.